I was on the phone with her earlier today and she asked me how my love life was. i.e. how is the hunt for a man going. I had to tell her that it's basically not going anywhere. Yes, I know plenty of datable guys, but no, I seriously don't think any of them are even remotely attracted to me.

Maybe I'm just gonna go through life never ever knowing what love is...or even what attraction is for that matter. So what is this, am I not pretty? am I not attractive? What is wrong with me?

I can't see any problems with myself, but they must be there! Somewhere.

So, my conclusion is ultimately this, I will be alone forever. Doomed to only dreaming about the life I wish I had. Actually, I love myself more than anything, and I wouldn't trade in myself for a chance to be anything else.